Angels, and Cole is one too?

I really enjoyed Relief Society at church today. There are so many women in our ward and the room is packed full. (the poor teachers) The lesson was on angels around us, and how we can all be an angel for someone else in their life. The teacher asked for stories we had in our lives, I thought of so many instances of people who were angels to me. Lucille Beecher in my old ward was an angel on a few occasions. She knocked at my door one day after I had just had a baby. I think she was taken back, because the "strong always happy Gina" ended up crying her eyes out to her. I needed her so bad at that time I am ever so grateful. Another is the 2 men who found my 2 year old Ben on the streets of Salt Lake City on Christmas Night and called the police.

ANGELS I tell you. My mother was an angel to me, she just jam packed me full of the love and the kind of love that I needed. I truly would have problems to this day if I had not had the mother I did. Another is a next door neighbor I once had in Grantsville, UT. Her name was Kelley. I will never forget her and her love that she outreached to me. She taught me how to be a neighbor. Another is my Best friend growing up, Michelle. Heavenly Father must have really had pity on me, and sent me an Angel for my child hood friend all growing up. I was so spoiled that I had set the bar pretty high as far as friends go. Then there are the many occasions my life was spared because of my guardian angels. I know an angel turned the wheel that night I got into a car accident that I should have died, if the wheel had been kept straight. My husbands parents have done many angelic items of business. I know they are so guided by the spirit.

Here I am bawling my eyes out. What a reminder today in relief society to remember the hand of the Lord in my life so many times.

Dream Land

Well I am so excited for Saturday!!!!

It is going to be the first day in a long time that I will get my Jeff all to myself. What will we do? I have no idea. I just like being around him, you may be thinking I am obsessed with jeff with a little sprinkle of obsessed on top. Tis true. It may not be healthy, I have always dreamed of owning a book store with jeff. And we could work together and have our house on the floor above. That is my dreamland that I visit sometimes. Weird?

Spring?

I am so excited for this cold winter to be gone with. I don't expect it to be hot and sunny, but to not have to walk around the house freezing would just really be nice. Jeff reminded me how I did not like it when it got all hot last summer. I sensed his "humbler" in action. I told him I would take it any day... he didn't believe me.

When the winters get long, I get easily down in the dumps. And today I just remembered a trick that makes the world of a difference. I looked in the mirror and said positive affirmations to myself. I felt a lot better afterward. And I need to remember to do this everyday, until the warmer weather can kick in. You should try this.

Thinking positive about myself just has a domino affect on how I feel about other things around me as well. Let me remind you, that I have gone all winter without doing this, Winter is just about to end and here I am. Spring tends to be a lot like winter too though.

This flower is the only flower in our yard at this time. Everyone else has hundreds of flowers coming up and blooming and we have one, that is obviously there by accident. I love it though, even though I have to squint to see it out the window.

Faith

I was helping Jeff prepare the lesson to teach Ben's class at church. The lesson was about priesthood blessings. It asked to share a personal experience of being sick and having a priesthood blessing. It made me remember a time a couple years ago, and so I shared it with jeff. (I had not ever shared my feelings of this occasion to Jeff before). Cole was 4 months old and I was nursing him. I guess I had a busy day and was starting to come down with a breast infection. I could feel it starting to turn into mastitis and it could not have been happening at a worse time. I had had mastitis maybe 6 or 7 times before that, and I knew what it entailed. It was in the evening hours on a Thursday night. The next day we were going to go up to Weber State University for Jeff's graduation for receiving his masters degree. This was a big accomplishment for jeff and it meant a lot to him that I be there. The boys and I would be the only friends or family that would be there. We also just had one car, and I knew that with him taking it in the early hours to go to his graduation would leave me with no way to go get medication for my infection. I felt awful about it. ANd so I asked him to give me a blessing. Now you must know this was the first time I had as strong as faith as I did to be healed. I knew that Heavenly Father knew that I needed to go to this graduation. I did not have any selfish intentions to be healed. (I knew going to the graduation would be hard and let me tell you, it was... keeping a four month old happy for hours on end and nursing him in the public of WSU and 2 young children who just wanted to run around a play). After the blessing I did my part by going to bed very early and drinking lots of water. When I woke up the next morning there was no sign of infection or any symptoms.

I was so grateful to my Heavenly Father for being healed.

FYI: Once a breast infection gets to the point of mastitis very rarely can a woman be healed on her own without an antibiotic or some homeopathic remedy

Given Much

Jeff and I are on a very much limited income. I wish I could give the boys more. We have felt bad that we haven't had the boys in some sort of activity for almost a year. We know it isn't the most important thing for the boys to be involved in sports, but we know that it would be good for them. And they would love it so much. So knowing that it isn't an option, we just put it on the back burner. Then on Valentines Jeff got a valentine from one of his students, it was a free month of karate lessons plus a free karate suit. When I saw it I knew it was our chance for Jacob to be involved in something. We may only do it for one month, but at least it is something.

Another blessing we have received is this. Jeff has one suit, it is an old suit, he has had it since after his mission. It is still nice, but it has been in remission for it's mending needs for quite some time. I finally did a jimmy rig of mending for it, but Jeff's dream has been to buy a new suit for a few years now. WE just never had the money. Then we were talking to Jeff's parents and Ken said he had a suit that didn't fit him anymore, and that it would fit Jeff. It was in great condition, and it fit pretty good. These things always happen time and time again. It humbles me every time, to know how much heavenly father watches over us, and loves us. I have always felt if I truly need something, and if I am very patient, Heavenly Father will help us find the way. Throughout all of this I now realize, that I should never just throw things out or give them to the DI, without making sure others may not need it first.

Jacob was so happy to have a karate lesson, he did really well. And he just made me giggle and smile the entire time of watching him. I am so glad I have a Jake-o-lantern.

SMILE

Today I wrote a letter to a friend I had all growing up. Yes I wrote a letter, I am old fashioned. I had the chance to spend a lot of time with her and her family before we moved this past summer. My parents have moved from the home I grew up in, and it just so happens that my childhood best friend, Michelle moved into my parents current ward. We lived with my parents before moving out of state, and not only did we have a good chance and being close to my parents before moving, we also had a good chance at being close to my old friend.

Michelle has had some challenges in her adult life that I know of She is such a strong woman, and always always has a smile on her face, she laughs when she is happy, sad, embarrassed, upset. Isn't that a good attribute. I would have to say her life is much happier because of that.

So today I am going to smile next time I feel upset and see what happens.

HI

laughing reality

Jeff has been making me laugh a lot. I complain too much of my problems and worries, and how can I when I have been blessed so much. I love my jeff, and my boys. I really have all I need, but I forget that too easily.
A woman spoke at stake conference about her daughter passing away as a child. She said how it was difficult, even though she knows her daughter will go to heaven and that she will be with her again someday and for eternity. This makes me wonder if my faith is strong enough to with hold real problems and real worries. I would hope. Maybe I will stop my complaining now. I need to not forget that. I think I will start by treating my jeff better, and being more kindly.

Proclaiming the gospel

I went to the stake conference adult session last night. One of the speakers had a very good idea. His talk was based on an apostles conf. talk (I am not sure which one). This is what I got from it. We need to proclaim the gospel and a good idea would be to use modern technology to do so.

So here I am typing on modern technology, and guess what this is how I am going to do it.

I am not for sure how I am going to do it, but I am going to try and we will see what happens.